I grew up in a Christian family, but I did not have subjective experience of the Lord. Although I knew that there was a God--Jesus Christ, He was my parent's God, not mine.
I became unsatisfied with my Christian life during my first year in my university. I began to pray to the Lord, asking Him to appear to me, seeking that I could touch Him even just once. One day I prayed desperately to Him; the Lord showed me John chapter 11 and revealed to me that He had His own timing. "I'm coming to you," He said. This was like a warm gentle flow of life penetrating my whole being. I sensed an unprecedented joy deep within. I knew, "it is Him!"
This was the turning point of my Christian life. Thereafter, the Lord became so real and precious to me in all my life. One time I was seeking for my future. I couldn't find the answer; it was late at night. Then this flow came, just like the very first time, so sweet and tender yet full of light. Immediately I received the Lord's answer and learned that what He wants is to dispense Himself into me. He does not care for good or bad, right or left, this or that, He wants to make His home in my heart. Again, this answer changed my life. My whole life is for Him to settle down in me. He should increase, I should decrease.
JD
